Sunday, March 13, 2011

Welcome to my big, fat pity party

5 weeks until Boston
14 miles of training this week
3 easy runs, rest week

This has been a bummer week and I have let it get the best of me. I am in a TERRIBLE funk. Luckily all my favorite blogs posted great weeks, and this is helping me put things into perspective. I am not there yet, but I am starting to turn this frown upside down. 

Because I am in a funk, I haven't felt like blogging or running. Thankfully I did more running than blogging, but fell short of my mileage goals. My mind is just not in the right place to marathon train. I need to change this fast. So I am going to try to take this advice, posted by one of my favorite bloggers (the blogger I won my Boston entry through). Man, does she come through when I need it the most. Straight from SUAR's blog:

"Whatever you are battling, patience is your friend. When we’re in the thick of hard times (and I’m not just talking about running) we think it will always be this way. It won’t."

Right now I am feeling like I can't get a break, but that is just my pity party talking. I did get a break: I got an entry to Boston, I have the means to get myself there and the physical ability to get myself over the finish line. That's big. I also just finished my Master's Degree. That is huge. I am the first person in my family to obtain a Master's Degree, and that is an accomplishment for all of us. I have to remind myself of this every day.

"The wonder of life is that there is ebb and flow. Highs and lows. Just as much as you can count on the low points, you can count on things turning around and heading up. Your “normal” might be different, but so be it. The only true thing we can count on in this life is that there will be change."

Whenever things get tough, I always cry and complain that I just want things to be normal and constant. I am not sure when I am going to realize that this is just not reality, but I need to get a better grip on that. Without the lows, we would never appreciate the highs. Instead of bumming, I need to embrace them to make myself stronger. That is the person I want to be. So I need to just suck it up and do it!

"Don’t waste energy comparing yourself to the next guy/gal/transvestite. Use all of your energy to keep moving forward with your goals. It’s overstated, but true: there will always be someone faster, stronger, thinner, richer, fitter, less constipated whatever. There will also always be someone slower, weaker, fatter, poorer, more out of shape, more constipated. The only way you can truly win is when you exceed your expectations for yourself. However that looks."

This week's training schedule:

3 miles Easy
6 miles Tempo
16 miles Long Run

My new diet plan requires that I exercise at least 30 minutes a day. This being a crazy week where I have to work late, I am not sure that is going to happen, but when I can do it, it is going to be great for cross training. Hopefully I can slim down and drop a few to make Boston easier.


  1. HANG IN THERE!! Good luck with next week's training, and don't be so hard on yourself! Finishing a degree is a HUGE frakin' deal.

  2. I know what you're feeling about the bloG, I have been on a hiatus from mine too. But, I don't think that a Master's Degree and 'pity party' can be in the same post.

    When I feel a little down, I have been channeling my newest role model and focus on one thing: Duh, Winning.

    And, CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!! I know it has been a very challenging work load but, if anyone could do it. It would be you! Let's eat some cake and celebrate, like my role model would. Minus the adult stars, machette or tiger blood. At least until after lent.

  3. OK, things are starting to look up. I got a killer parking spot tonight, even though I got home late and worked a 14 hour day, and I found out my chance of getting bought back in negotiations is better than I thought.

    Thanks for all the love. I just sat down with my tiger's blood smoothie (hey, I'm not catholic!) and my invisible slice of cake to start celebrating. Things always seem worse than they really are!

  4. Less than 5 weeks now! Good luck with the training this week. They posted the bib #'s on the BAA website today. Its getting more and more real every day! 33 days to go! :)