Now that the semester is winding down, I am finally regaining control of my life, albeit a temporary return of control. Today I did a short run on my favorite treadmill (NOT!!!) but was proud of myself for getting my fitness on. 20 minutes at 5.5 mph (I know, underwhelming right?). It was more about getting out than how many miles I got in. I am hoping to get some miles in this weekend and next week as well.
Work has destroyed my training over the last 3 months. The obscene amount of stress I am going through is sucking the life and humor out of me. I remember being a light hearted, playful person. Now I feel like I am turning into a tired, whiny, back down the chubby road person. I realized today this is on of those moments where I need to regain control now or I will slip into a nasty spiral and won't come back until I hit rock bottom. Like 2005-2008.
So, my solution is to restart my training calendar and put it in a place where I will see it every day. I am going to eat more salads and vegetables. I need to figure out a way to curb emotional eating (which I am doing way too much of now). I am planning ahead for next semester (I am nearly done planning my units for January!) so maybe I can wake up early/get home from work earlier to go to the gym and get my mileage back up. It is a vicious cycle: Life gets busy so you have less time to run, then you have less energy because you are not running, which makes it even harder to get out and run. If I could only figure out how to balance everything so the stress never gets the chance to take over. I'd feel better about myself, manage stress better, and be an overall happier person. If I put on all the weight I have lost over the past 2 years, I am NEVER going to forgive myself. That might be the biggest disappointment ever.
As the year winds down, I am practicing the new habit I am going to make in the new year. Let's hope for more blogging, more funny stories, and hard bod for Tahiti. I've done it before and now it's time to convince myself I can do it again!